location: Bed (as usual)
mood: nauseated
Well. It's Friday and this is my first entry (Mommy M). I really want to change the title of our blog to "Mommy J's Wild Ride". I'll run it by Jen first though :) She's priceless and the love of my life. I've read her first few entries and she definitely downplays her role in our pregnancy. She's taken care of me like you wouldnt believe. We're both in law enforcement, so we have incredibly busy schedules. I'm not in patrol anymore, so that slowed things down a bit. Our normal dynamic though, is that I usually do the cooking and cleaning and she helps with what I ask her to. Not because we have a 'man thing' 'woman thing' dynamic (I think that this is a ridiculous assumption on the heterosexual communitie's part). It's because I'm anal retentive and love to cook. I do what I enjoy and she's glad to pick up the slack on what I dont like to do.
However, since I've been sick with this 'All Day Sickness', she's been a one woman wonder. Like a little tornado in our house, lol. She cooks, cleans, shops, takes the dogs out, keeps up with the cats (we have two of each) and just anything that I want or need, it's done. It brings me a lot of guilt, because I'm watching her wear herself out, but I love her for it because right now, I barely function. She's amazing and I dont know what I did to deserve such an amazing partner.
She, will be an incredibly mother. I really think, that when we go to friends houses who have babies...that if she could non-chalantly walk out as we're saying good bye with the baby and go on home, she would. Not in a scary kidnap way, lol. She just really, genuinely, loves kids. They love her too though. All of them. Kids, animals, they cant get enough of her. She's like the Pied Piper of all things small and innocent. Her patience and love run deep and I'm so excited to parent with her.
On the pregnancy side of things. Ugh. What a ride this is so far. Thus, Mommy J's Wild Ride (Kind of like I'm Mr. Toad and she's just having to hang on). With our first son (now 15), I also had Hypermesis Gravitum. I lost about 30lbs in one month, ended up in the hospital for a couple of days, but my doctor back then refused to put me on any type of medication. Nothing against male doctors, but we have a female this time, and she's amazing. She promised us that we wouldnt go through the horrors that were gone through with our son. More on that story in a later blog.
For this pregnancy so far, I've been on Phenargen, Zofran, B6 and every natural, homeopathic thing you can imagine. We tried everything before meds, because, as with everyone I'm sure, we didnt want to take them. However, once you lose 12lbs in a week, arent sleeping or eating and barely drinking, it's time to do something. So, we started with Phenargen. Now, let me say, the first couple of days were nice. Or as nice as they could be. I hadnt really been sleeping, and this med knocked me out COLD. After four days of coma-like sleep though, it got strange. It was like involuntary sleeping that didnt feel like rest. It felt like you were sleeping, but someone was still sucking the life energy out of you.
As that week went on, I had to start taking it at closer intervals. Every 8 hrs went to 6, then to 4 and then I was vomitting with it or without it, so I stopped taking it. We saw our OB a few days later and she took us off of the Phenargen and put us on the Zofran. For those of you who dont know, Zofran is about $600 for 9 disolving tablets. So, we obviously asked for the generic, which took it down to a very pleasing $5 co-pay. Love our insurance :)
The first day on Zofran, I was able to eat. I felt like it was a God send. The down side with Zofran is that it constipates you. Not to sound gross (those of you with kids wont care, lol), but we ate really healthy before the pregnancy, so I was used to about 3 bowel movements a day. Consistent, easy. I am now lucky if I go every four days. And that's with the Metamucil, stool softener, etc. So, needless to say, there's a down side to every med. I was willing to take this hit, as long as I was able to eat and the nausea subsided. Unfortunately, the effectiveness wore off as quickly as the first med. By the fifth day, I was taking it between the 4th and 6th hour. So, the doctor told us, take a Phenergen at night (Zofran also causes some insomnia) and the Zofran during the day.
As of today, I feel at the end of my rope. We're almost at week 12, so I'm praying that we're near the end. The metallic taste in my mouth is now at the point where it makes everything taste the same. DISGUSTING. The thought of eating makes me want to vomit all in itself. I'm sick, of being sick. This is an unusual place for me to be too, because regardless of the above rant, I'm not a complainer. I'm pretty much a move on and get it done kind of person. Jen can attest to that. I feel like not a moment of the day goes by right now where I'm not complaining. Even if not out loud, my mind's still racing. However, I feel solidly validated because I do feel so crappy. I promise future blogs will be more entertaining, if not gross to hold your interest :) Good Night all!
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